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For quite some time, I've been wanting to give my bedroom a facelift--making it fit the "cozy cottage" vibe I desired when I first bought this house 🏑
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πŸ—οΈ I definitely would NOT swap lives with either Grayson or Jameson in The Brothers Hawthorne because I don't even have a fraction of their brain power to solve puzzles and enter high-stakes games.. like that would just be a recipe for disaster! 🫣
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🏰 Aaaand I also probably wouldn't swap with Agatha or Sophie in The School for Good and Evil because I'd be very confused in a place like that and wind up creating chaos without meaning to because how do you *not* when you're living in close quarters with fairytale characters? πŸ˜…
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Happy first weekend of autumn 🍁 Who else is as thrilled as I am that the best season has officially arrived? 🀭
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I spent the day baking pumpkin bread with my sister, reading The Brothers Hawthorne while sipping my (multiple) cups of coffee, and watching the blustery rainy weather πŸŽƒ
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To answer my own question, here are a few of my top cozy, autumn book recs:
β€’ The Nature of Witches by Rachel Griffin
β€’ All Souls by Deborah Harkness
β€’ Legends & Lattes by Travis Baldree
β€’ Payback’s a Witch by Lana Harper
β€’ Sorcery of Thorns by Margaret Rogerson
β€’ Spells for Lost Things by Jenna Evans Welch
β€’ The Bone Houses by Emily Lloyd-Jones
β€’ The Very Secret Society of Irregular Witches by Sangu Mandanna
β€’ The Wicked Deep by Shea Ernshaw
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I don't pick up many spring or summer books (since I dislike those seasons), but I typically find myself reading more cozy or witchy novels during autumn! πŸ‚ Doing this helps me to fully embrace my favorite time of the year πŸ™ŒπŸΌ
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Lifestyle · February 15, 2023

How Being Diagnosed With a Chronic Illness Altered My Life

This post was originally published in September 2018. It has been updated to reflect what my life with a chronic illness looks like right now.

Everything You Need to Know About Gastroparesis by The Espresso Edition cozy lifestyle and book blog

These are the confessions of a gastroparesis sufferer. A what sufferer? Gastroparesis. A chronic digestive disease. A disease that I live with.

On New Year’s Day of 2015, I wound up in the emergency room. I hadn’t been able to keep any food in my stomach for 24 hours, and I was miserable. This wasn’t the first time I’d dealt with stomach ailments. In fact, I’d basically been living with an ongoing “stomach ache” since I was in preschool. We just didn’t know what was causing it. I’d stopped eating dairy, been tested for celiac, and tried a “healthy diet” more than once.

However, I also had the lining of my stomach ripped at 16 from an acne medication, was hospitalized with a serious bout of mono at 19, and had a severe eating disorder that lasted throughout my teenage years. Let’s just say, I wasn’t exactly kind to my stomach, and the repercussions were much more extreme than I expected.

After a slew of medical examinations that didn’t provide us with any answers, my gastroenterologist suggested a gastric emptying scan. Nutshell version: they make you eat some radioactive eggs, then lay you beneath a camera, which follows the radioactive material through your system. The doctor kept joking that maybe I’d come out the other side as a superhero. It would also determine whether or not I had gastroparesis, a chronic illness I had never heard of before.

I was told that while most individuals can process something as simple as scrambled eggs in around 30 minutes or less, my digestive tract would take 3 times as long – or longer. Now imagine having to process a steak dinner or something much heavier. Needless to say, it all made sense why I was experiencing such severe pain immediately following even the smallest of meals. Not to mention the intense nausea that stuck around like an unwanted guest all the time.


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Everything You Need to Know About Gastroparesis by The Espresso Edition cozy lifestyle and book blog

The diagnosis was official: I had gastroparesis.

This scary-sounding disease has altered my life drastically since that diagnosis. At first, I believed I’d be able to get back to “normalcy” after allowing some time to “heal.” How wrong I was. The bad news got worse when I discovered my allergy to the only FDA-approved medication for this disease, along with numerous food allergies that prevent me from typical gastroparesis diets. I had hoped for some sort of relief, but instead, I came to the realization that this was going to be a central part of my life for an indefinite period of time.

After starting jobs only to lose them a couple of months or weeks later (due to the constant need to call out of work sick), I decided to start looking for something to do from the comfort of my bed. This is when blogging chose me. I already had a following on Instagram, so I took the time to research and launch my website and over the past 7+ years, I’ve turned it into a full-time business

(*Disclaimer: after rebranding from fashion to book blogging at the beginning of 2021, I no longer made a full-time income with this blog. However, it is still a secondary source of income and I still do it full-time, though my primary income is made from social media management). I never thought my illness would provide such a blessing, but I’m incredibly thankful for the opportunity to do what I love every day.

Do I still experience the symptoms?

Yep. Nearly every day I wake up with tear-inducing pain ripping through my gut. Thanks, gastroparesis. I have to give myself an extended period of time to just sit in bed before actually getting up and moving about, because of the discomfort. Each time I eat, it hurts. Sometimes, I can physically feel a knot the size of a fist on my stomach, where the food hasn’t properly been digested. This is called a bezoar and regularly occurs in those with abnormal gastric emptying.

Every now and then, I’ll have an extreme flare-up of excruciating pain that keeps me bedridden for days at a time. During these periods, the discomfort and nausea are so intense that only 2-3 foods sound even somewhat pleasant to me. Sometimes, I’ll get mini flare-ups while I’m out and about, and they typically result in calling off whatever I’m doing, and going straight to bed (or to my car to curl up in a ball if a bed isn’t readily available). It’s tough never being fully in control of my body.

What can I do to cope?

Honestly, not much. I don’t say this to be dramatic. The reality is that there’s no true relief. I can take my nausea medication. I can pray for the pain to cease. But sometimes I just need to cry it out, then stay in bed to wait it out. I’m not sure if this will ever just go away, so I’ve learned to “deal with it” the best I can, and keep living my life. I’ve created my own kind of normal and I’m still learning every day how to navigate that in new ways.

But I look just fine! (Cue every spoonie ever rolling their eyes at how often they hear this).

Often, diseases aren’t seen by the human eye. Gastroparesis is one of those – at least it is for me. I do know people who have it so much worse, needing a feeding tube to even receive any kind of nutrients. The only time it’s noticeable for me is when I’m losing weight due to my inability to eat comfortably, or when my skin is wrecked because of the lack of gut health. Most often, it’s obvious when I’m doubled over in pain all of a sudden. Let me tell you, I’ve had to work through how embarrassing that is.

I also don’t want to spend 90% of my time complaining about my stomach, so I sometimes put on a brave face for social media and do my best to enjoy time with friends. However, I’ll often cancel meetings with clients, postpone lunch dates with family, or leave parties earlier because of my symptoms acting up. I do what I can when I can, and let my body rest on the days that are just a little too hard.

Everything You Need to Know About Gastroparesis by The Espresso Edition cozy lifestyle and book blog

Gastroparesis sucks, but it doesn’t define me – or does it?

I’m oddly thankful for this illness, because, without it, I may have never begun this blog. I try not to let it take over my entire life, but it’s a huge part of the picture, and it’s had a massive role to play in who I am today. So I’m going to keep pushing forward, hoping for a cure, but also working towards my dreams and goals – never letting it hold me back. It will only propel me forward! This is why I chose such cheery photos to go along with this post. I’m working to keep that smile on my face, no matter what!

Do you – or anyone else you know – fight through life with a chronic illness?

In: Lifestyle · Tagged: chronic illness, gastric emptying test, gastroparesis, gastroparesis-sufferer, spoonie, stomach disease, what is gastroparesis

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Renee || Getting Fit Fab
5 years ago

I’ve never heard of this gastro-disease, how awful. The pain you’re talking about sounds similar to what I experienced when I had open ulcers on my stomach lining and esophagus. That really sucks that you can’t take the medicine because you’re allergic to it and the diet. Whew, rough girl. But you’re right if you didn’t have this we wouldn’t be able to read your blog or see these fabulous outfits. Keep smiling! <3

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Donna
5 years ago

Amazing how you worked hard to find the good out of an unbelievably challenging illness. So proud of you. Keep fighting!

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Jheelam
5 years ago

You look so cheery and glowing in all of your pics, it definitely showed that you’ve taken this horrible disease by its hand and came away victorious. More power and good health to you. πŸ™‚

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Stefanie
5 years ago

You are so strong Steph!! I hope one day they find a relief for you that helps you cope with the pain and nausea! But it’s crazy and amazing how something so terrible has led you to something so great! Always proud of you!! <3

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September
5 years ago

You still need to explain the term spoonies!

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Donna
5 years ago

Amazing how you worked hard to find the good out of an unbelievably challenging illness. So proud of you. Keep fighting!

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Jheelam
5 years ago

You look so cheery and glowing in all of your pics, it definitely showed that you’ve taken this horrible disease by its hand and came away victorious. More power and good health to you. πŸ™‚

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Sarah Lindner
5 years ago

I have never heard of Gastroparesis. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us and how you work through the pain daily. I can’t imagine how you must feel everyday. I hope they find a cure one day!

XOXO
Sarah

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September
5 years ago

You still need to explain the term spoonies!

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Stephanie Whitman
5 years ago
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the word itself is linked at the bottom of the post in pink πŸ™‚ just click it to learn more!

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Kim
5 years ago

I have never heard of Gastroparesis but it definitely doesn’t sound fun. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m so glad you are coping with it. Hopefully a cure is on the way in the future!

xoxo,
Kim

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Avani
5 years ago

Oh.. No. I had never heard of this before. Surely doesn’t sound like fun

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Kileen
5 years ago

I’m so sorry to hear babe. It definitely sounds life changing and I pray and hope that you will find some sort of relief soon. Sending you lots of love and positive vibes!

Kileen
cute & little

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Beth
5 years ago

I think it is awesome that you are able to take this very uncomfortable fact of your life and focus on the positive. I also hope that one day a medication will be approved for this that you can take.

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Kileen
5 years ago

I’m so sorry to hear babe. It definitely sounds life changing and I pray and hope that you will find some sort of relief soon. Sending you lots of love and positive vibes!

Kileen
cute & little

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Amanda
5 years ago

I have never heard of Gastroparesis before. Thanks for sharing your story -hopefully this post will help someone else that has it too.

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Amanda
5 years ago

I have never heard of Gastroparesis before. Thanks for sharing your story -hopefully this post will help someone else that has it too.

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Jasmine Vargas
5 years ago

underneath that beautiful smile, you sure hide any pain issues you are having. I hope that one day you can find some relief to all of this. I’m a baby when I am bloated, I can’t imagine dealing with that.

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Mollie
5 years ago

Omg Stephanie – I had no idea you we’re going through this! I’ve never heard of Gastroparesis before, but it doesn’t sound fun πŸ™ I am so happy that through all the pain and lost jobs you were able to find blogging and take it into a full time career, and one that work around your own schedule. I hope they make a new medicine that you aren’t allergic to! Thank you for being so open and sharing your experience with this disease!

xx Mollie
http://www.molliemooreblog.com

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Mollie
5 years ago

Omg Stephanie – I had no idea you we’re going through this! I’ve never heard of Gastroparesis before, but it doesn’t sound fun πŸ™ I am so happy that through all the pain and lost jobs you were able to find blogging and take it into a full time career, and one that work around your own schedule. I hope they make a new medicine that you aren’t allergic to! Thank you for being so open and sharing your experience with this disease!

xx Mollie
http://www.molliemooreblog.com

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Stephani
5 years ago

Thanks so much for sharing your story with us. I cannot imagine how difficult and challenging this could be but you seem so strong and I am so glad you’ve found an outlet that makes you happy – something you can do from home!

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Ada
5 years ago

I can’t even begin to imagine how hard it is to deal with this. Thank you for sharing your story!

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Liz
5 years ago

Oh my goodness! I have never heard of this before! You are such an inspiration and I think it’s amazing that you are bringing light to this!

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Laura || Walking in Memphis in High Heels
5 years ago

This is such an amazing story! It’s so true that just because we can’t see that your suffering physically doesn’t mean you aren’t suffering. I am so glad that it’s lead you to blogging and a life that can be altered to be able to work with this disease and push through it. You keep smiling girl!

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Deborah
5 years ago

Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your last point actually really stood out to me. My mom has rheumatoid arthritis and while people say she “looks fine” it’s the invisible diseases that can really get a person.

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Liz
5 years ago

Oh my goodness! I have never heard of this before! You are such an inspiration and I think it’s amazing that you are bringing light to this!

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Megan
5 years ago

I have never even heard of this disease before your post. Thank you for enlightening us and making us aware.

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Laura
5 years ago

I am so sorry to hear that you’ve been experiencing this sort of pain since preschool. I had never heard of this before and I can only imagine how painful it is as you’ve described it quite well. Invisible diseases can be just as hard to cope with as those that are out in the open. Sending you lots of hugs and thanks for sharing your story!

xo, Laura

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kelly Fordon
5 years ago

This definitely puts things into perspective for me. For as long as I can remember I’ve experienced some kind of stomach discomfort (nothing too crazy, just sensitivity.) I couldn’t even imagine going through this kind of pain every day. Sending good vibes your way!

Cheers x

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Jasmine Boswell
5 years ago

okayyy you are the absolute cutest!!

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Jasmine Boswell
5 years ago

okayyy you are the absolute cutest!!

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Avani
4 years ago

Oh.. No. I had never heard of this before. Surely doesn’t sound like fun

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Kim
4 years ago

I have never heard of Gastroparesis but it definitely doesn’t sound fun. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m so glad you are coping with it. Hopefully a cure is on the way in the future!

xoxo,
Kim

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Stephani
4 years ago

Thanks so much for sharing your story with us. I cannot imagine how difficult and challenging this could be but you seem so strong and I am so glad you’ve found an outlet that makes you happy – something you can do from home!

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Sarah Lindner
4 years ago

I have never heard of Gastroparesis. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us and how you work through the pain daily. I can’t imagine how you must feel everyday. I hope they find a cure one day!

XOXO
Sarah

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Stefanie
4 years ago

You are so strong Steph!! I hope one day they find a relief for you that helps you cope with the pain and nausea! But it’s crazy and amazing how something so terrible has led you to something so great! Always proud of you!! <3

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Molly | Transatlantic Notes
1 year ago

I really appreciate how you’ve explored your experiences in this post; it was an education to learn about gastroparesis as I’d not heard of it before. It sounds like you have an incredibly resilient attitude about it all and I found that so encouraging. Thank you for sharing this!

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Jaya Avendel
1 year ago

I cannot imagine living with a chronic illness akin to yours, though I experience it so poignantly through your well-told story! That you do what you can when you can and remember to keep smiling and finding positives is a wonderful attitude to adopt and stick to.

I have Lyme’s Disease. I discovered I had it after suddenly developing a fever that lasted three days. Now I am able to manage it with herbs and supplements, but it does not affect me as drastically as yours affects you.

Thank you for sharing this amazing personal tale!

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Neely Moldovan
1 year ago

As a fellow chronic illness gal I applaud you! I had no idea. But I know so many benefit from you sharing your story!

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Ashley@AttemptsAtDomestication
1 year ago

That sounds so difficult to deal with! It’s amazing though that a chronic illness pushed you in a different direction to start your own career path! That’s like the ultimate lemons and lemonade!

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Lizzie
1 year ago

Thank you for sharing this! I knew that you had it but didn’t quite understand the extent. I have many food allergies so I definitely feel you on the eating thing. It’s so frustrating to not really know what’s going on and then to have to drastically change your lifestyle because let’s be honest, food is central part of our life and not many people understand when these things happen. I’m glad that it did bring about the blog as a positive from this experience but I sure do hope you get some relief in the future <3

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Donna Whitman
1 year ago

I’m so sorry that you have had to deal with this most of your life, my sweet daughter, but I have watched it grow you, strengthen you, and shape your destiny as a writer and a manager for multiple businesses, including mine! You have more creativity in your little pinkie than so many and you use those talents to help others. I am amazed at what you accomplish from your bed, but I’m more amazed by who you are. An amazing, powerful, thoughtful and loving woman. What a force you are, Stephanie. I’m grateful to be your mom.

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Corinne
1 year ago

Oh my word, this sounds awful, I’m so sorry you go through this on a daily basis. I hope there are some medical advances soon that allow you to love more comfortably.

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Simona
1 year ago

I know you mentioned a few times on some of our recipe posts that you are allergic to this and that ingredient, but I had never understood just how serious this was! Cristina mentioned you were struggling with a condition, but again, as someone who has a stomach made of iron (that’s how I like to call my babe) I couldn’t really understand. With the years, and the many terrible things I have fed it, my once-called iron box is now a little sorry for itself from time to time, but I do hope your situation can improve, even if just a little bit. Taking your time to respond to your body, though, is the best example we should all take from this.

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Tina
1 year ago

I’m so glad I fumbled upon your post. I have been struggling for 5 years with symptoms that I was struggling with. I’ve had every test that can be ran & reran…. About 2 years ago I was diagnosed with Jackhammer Esophagus & though β€œThank God they finally found something!” Although I was sure there was more going on with me & I was dismissed by the doctors. Well finally I continued to Not remain silent & the one test that had Never been done was finally done. I was diagnosed with Gastroparesis. I also have a lot of food allergies & I’m learning that I just can’t do the food list that they suggest. I am truly struggling & need help navigating through this. If you could share any avenues for me to find things to eat I would greatly appreciate it! Thank you for sharing your story.

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Stephanie Whitman
1 year ago
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I’m really glad you were finally able to receive a diagnosis that led you to some true answers! I know how challenging that process can be. Unfortunately, my food allergies are really bizarre (avocado, apples, turkey, potatoes, onion, pineapples, soy, pistachios, turkey, green beans, etc.) so despite having seen nutritionists to help with a “gastroparesis diet,” I really have to just eat what I can when I can rather than maintaining a specific formula. However, you may benefit from seeing someone in that field to help you navigate foods that will help you, especially if your food allergies are more along the lines of “normal” (gluten, dairy, nuts, fish, etc.) because they can definitely form a diet that’s more specific to that!

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I'm All Booked Up
7 months ago

We’re so sorry that you have to deal with chronic illness. Thank you for sharing your experiences. We have a friend with a similar problem and it also took a long time for her to get a real diagnosis.

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Celeste | A Literary Escape
7 months ago

Thank you for sharing your journey about gastroparesis with your readers…I know it can be tough to open up publicly to strangers about your personal life. I’m sorry that this is something you’re living with because there’s currently no cure (hopefully one day there will be!). I just read another post of yours about your 6 favorite fantasy books and I’m gald reading offers you an adventure-filled haven of escapism. πŸ™‚

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Jada
7 months ago

Chronic pain is the worst. I was injured in covid and it kept me in bed for a year in too much pain to walk. A lot of intentional physio has me walking but I don’t think the pain will ever fully be gone.
Thanks for sharing your journey. There is such beauty in knowing that we’re not alone in pain. You are an inspiration.

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Alicia M.
6 months ago

Well… that sounds oddly familiar. I too had a perforated ulcer explode when I was 16. I had chronic stomach issues with blocked bowels with at botched surgery and chronic pancreatitis from too small of bile ducts. I had a pretty bad eating disorder as well. Unfortunately I also am allergic to raglan. This is one of the dumbest diseases. Not much I can do, lost lots of jobs till I found real estate which is pretty flexible. Nice to hear I’m not the only one in this boat.

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Natalie Desanto
5 months ago

I really needed to see this so thank you first off. I have been physically ill for over a year 1/2 with no explanation, and like you said had a permanent tummy ache since forever. Finally I have some answers and I was diagnosed with gastroperisis. I also suffer with Major Depressive Disorder and newly diagnosed with having Bi-polar tendencies. I recently had a nervous breakdown on Valentine’s Day and now with this I’m freaking to say the least. Reading this gave me some comfort though. So I really appreciate you taking the time to write this, also appreciate you being open and honest about it. Just thank you overall for being you πŸ™ŒπŸ™β€οΈπŸ˜˜

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For quite some time, I've been wanting to give my bedroom a facelift--making it fit the "cozy cottage" vibe I desired when I first bought this house 🏑
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Before starting my renovation journey, I created a mood board with my ideal home decor in mind πŸ›οΈ I knew that I wanted a wood dresser that combined modern farmhouse with classic elements, and @sauderusa 100% delivered! πŸ™ŒπŸΌ
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This stunning oak dresser immediately brought serious #SauderStyle (aka new life and so much beautiful warmth) to the room 🀎 It's incredibly sturdy, has so much space, and was honestly quite easy to assemble (with a friend) πŸ› οΈ I still catch myself staring at it each time I walk by 😍
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Is there a book you read this year that you don't Is there a book you read this year that you don't see mentioned nearly enough on bookstagram? πŸ“– Hype up why I should read it in the comments! πŸ’¬
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The first titles that come to mind from my 2023 reading list (so far) are:
🌲 We Are All So Good at Smiling by @ambsmcbride 
πŸ“– The Neighbor Favor by @kristinaforest_ 
πŸ’» Just My Type by @falonballard 
πŸ₯³ House Party edited by @justinwritesya 
🦊 The Night Fox by @ashleywilda_ 
πŸ¦β€β¬› Illuminations by @redwombatstudio
πŸ“š Story Thieves by @jamesrileyauthor 
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Have you read any of these books or are any of them on your TBR? 🀎 
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If the main character of your current read asked y If the main character of your current read asked you to swap lives with them right now, would you agree? πŸ’­ Why or why not? πŸ€”
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πŸ—οΈ I definitely would NOT swap lives with either Grayson or Jameson in The Brothers Hawthorne because I don't even have a fraction of their brain power to solve puzzles and enter high-stakes games.. like that would just be a recipe for disaster! 🫣
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🏰 Aaaand I also probably wouldn't swap with Agatha or Sophie in The School for Good and Evil because I'd be very confused in a place like that and wind up creating chaos without meaning to because how do you *not* when you're living in close quarters with fairytale characters? πŸ˜…
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I've been drinking this Bannered Mare tea from @steepedinlore with a splash of milk almost daily and it's been just the pick-me-up I need when I have those midday slumps after spending hours at my desk πŸ’» You don't want to miss this one and you can use the code ESPRESSO10 for a discount when you make your purchase! πŸ«–
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If you don't want to swap with the MC of your current read, which character WOULD you want to trade lives with? πŸ“–
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What are some of your favorite autumnal books? πŸ‚
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Happy first weekend of autumn 🍁 Who else is as thrilled as I am that the best season has officially arrived? 🀭
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I spent the day baking pumpkin bread with my sister, reading The Brothers Hawthorne while sipping my (multiple) cups of coffee, and watching the blustery rainy weather πŸŽƒ
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To answer my own question, here are a few of my top cozy, autumn book recs:
β€’ The Nature of Witches by Rachel Griffin
β€’ All Souls by Deborah Harkness
β€’ Legends & Lattes by Travis Baldree
β€’ Payback’s a Witch by Lana Harper
β€’ Sorcery of Thorns by Margaret Rogerson
β€’ Spells for Lost Things by Jenna Evans Welch
β€’ The Bone Houses by Emily Lloyd-Jones
β€’ The Very Secret Society of Irregular Witches by Sangu Mandanna
β€’ The Wicked Deep by Shea Ernshaw
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Have you read any of these? πŸ“–
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Do you plan your reads around the seasons? 🍁
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I don't pick up many spring or summer books (since I dislike those seasons), but I typically find myself reading more cozy or witchy novels during autumn! πŸ‚ Doing this helps me to fully embrace my favorite time of the year πŸ™ŒπŸΌ
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It'll come as no surprise to you that, thanks to @steepedinlore, I've also been sipping on many mugs of tea while I dive into my autumnal reads πŸ«– Make sure you use my code ESPRESSO10 to get a discount on your seasonal tea purchase! 🀎
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πŸ” FUN FACT ABOUT THIS PHOTO: My sweet and smooshy calico cat, Nona, decided that scarf was her snuggle spot and curled right upβ€”she makes the cutest prop, doesn’t she? πŸ₯Ή
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Where do you purchase your home decor? πŸͺ΄ β €β € Where do you purchase your home decor? πŸͺ΄
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SURPRISE! I'm going to begin adding home content to this page and I'm incredibly excited about it πŸ₯³ I've been slowly but surely transforming my house into the cozy little cottage of my dreams and the first thing to get a rework was the gallery wall in my bedroom, thanks to @desenio πŸ–ΌοΈ
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I've been shopping from Desenio for YEARS now and very highly recommend their stunning art prints and frames, so of course, the opportunity to be a #DesenioPartner for this project was a dream come true πŸ™ŒπŸΌ In fact, I have gallery walls featuring their posters in three different rooms in my home--that's how much I love them 😍
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You can read my full review of this company (from products to pricing to shipping, and more) at the link in my bio πŸ’» And between now and October 3, you can get 45% off your purchase from @desenio using the code ESPRESSOEDITION 🫢🏼
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Which print in my new gallery wall is your favorite? 🀎
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What are some books that you've made your entire p What are some books that you've made your entire personality? πŸ™ˆ
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Truthfully, it doesn't matter how long you've followed me, you probably already know that I love all things Shadow and Bone 🫢🏼 I've been going through a Grishaverse reread this year and loving every second of it, but nothing will compare to those first three books! πŸ₯°
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I was late to the game with this trilogy, reading it for the first time just a little before the show first premiered, but it quickly became a core part of my personality πŸ˜‰ Now, I own two signed copies of the first book (one is the special edition hardcover and one is the show tie-in) πŸ“– And no joke, 90% of my candles are related to the Grishaverse in some way (thank you @janzywaxco for providing the perfect scents for my many rereads and rewatches πŸ•―οΈ)
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When was the last time you reread your favorite series? πŸ“š 
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Hi friends--what have I missed? 🀎
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All I'm hearing on repeat in my head is Jacob Black's ridiculous, "Where the hell have you been, loca?" πŸ˜† I missed you all SO MUCH this past month and a half 😭
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So to answer the werewolf's question:
🫢🏼 I got to spend a week with one of my best buddies in Ohio and we made friendship blankets, got matching Gilmore Girls tattoos, went to high tea, watched a ton of Seinfeld, avoided a tornado, and shopped til we dropped (it was the best time)
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πŸ“– @chronicacademia and I have been buddy-reading like our lives depend on it for quite some time, but actually meeting in person and being able to geek out over books together face-to-face was the absolute best
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πŸ₯€ The chance to meet one of my favorite authors during the same trip? Couldn't pass that up! I attended the Foxglove book tour in Columbus for @authoradalyngrace and it was such a surreal experience
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πŸͺ΄ I've begun to work on some home projects--finally turning my cozy cottage into exactly that--and I'm loving every second of it! Very thankful for some incredible partnerships that will be coming to this page real soon
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πŸ₯° I’ve spent so much quality time with my family, including celebrating my sister’s birthday with her making such precious memories. So grateful for my incredible tribe who have held me up and brought so much comfort lately. 
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πŸ’” The life update that I posted on my stories on Sept 1 explained the hardest part of why I disappeared for so long. I know that there are great plans for my future even as I stumble my way through the now (if you missed it and are confused, feel free to DM me)
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Now, tell me something that you're looking forward to this autumn πŸ‚
What was the last book someone recommended to you What was the last book someone recommended to you that became a favorite? 🀎
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Okay, this wasn't the last one for me, but it was the FIRST book that @chronicacademia recommended to me… and it became an instant fave 😍
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The Bone Houses is a cozy-creepy (aka, not scary, but just a little eerie, while also being totally cozy and atmospheric) fantasy with incredible disability rep and a truly creative story 🦴 If you haven't read it yet, I highly recommend it for your "spooky season" TBR πŸŽƒ
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Do you prefer to savor one book for an extended pe Do you prefer to savor one book for an extended period of time, or do you tend to fly through your reads pretty quickly? ⏳
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There was something really nice about slowing down and reading little bits at a time, then discussing them with my friend, then reading more, then theorizing about the plot, then reading a little more, etc. 🀎 It felt good to just appreciate the book rather than gobbling it up (though I know I'll go right back to that with whatever I read next πŸ˜†)
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